Over the past few months, I discovered about more of my friends - and their friends - who have not been able to conceive easily. The weird part is, I never knew about this until I shared with them my issues with PCOS.
Why don't we, as women, talk about these things more? Is it because of shame? A stigma that we aren't supposed to talk about this? Maybe, for some, they think that it's no one else's business except theirs and their husband's, and I respect that. But for everyone else who's just staying quiet...
Well EFF that! You know how much better I've felt talking about it to these women and finding out there are others going through the same thing? It's liberating to hear I'm not some freak of nature. To be honest, it's been very therapeutic getting my thoughts and feelings out on paper (even if it is cyberpaper) via this blog. It helps keep me sane and focused.
Having said all that, I decided over the weekend (and after talking to some of my girlfriends who also had issues conceiving), that I'm switching this blog from private to public. And if sharing my blog might give another woman a chance to read about someone going through these problems, isn't it better for me to share?
Going forward, I'm still going to try to find some of the humor in it all as well. I mean, come on, it wouldn't be me without some acerbic commentary on it all.
Update (03.24.2011): In the 3 years since I originally wrote this post, I'm happy to report I no longer have PCOS! Of course, it's because I no longer have ovaries, or a uterus, or any of things medically necessary have a baby myself -- that's because in February of 2010 uterine cancer stole that from me. We were lucky in that we were able to do IVF prior to my hysterectomy, and we now have 6 kidscicles on ice.
I still firmly believe the above words, though. As I was faced with my loss of fertility in the face of cancer, even more friends, family, and acquaintances came out of the woodwork to share their struggles. (Even Dads - who equally goes through these pains yet are forgotten in the focus on the woman - shared with me that thanks to this site they feel they can now talk about things.)
So keep talking about this stuff. It's too important not to. Think you're alone? You're not. Trust me, you're not the only drama queen in town. There's PLENTY of us to go around.